[Same place as always. It was getting more and more familiar now as the weeks turned into months. Leo and Aydin were becoming part of the block. They were familiar faces now, instead of fresh and new. Familiar, but still beautiful.]
[Leo felt a wave of terror hit him as the man reached out and touched. He took a deep breath through his nostrils, instinctively tensing up.
Every single nerve in him told him not to go. The last time had frightened him beyond measure and scarred him for life. Then again... Aydin had already had two clients today. Two. What did he have? Nothing at all.]
[He didn't want to. He didn't want to. Every touch terrified him. Every single feather light stroke felt like burning.
The mans tongue was like rotten meat on his lips. He wanted to back off, but he couldn't move.
Then, like a dog, he felt the command hit him and his mind jumped to action. He found himself walking by the mans side like a total zombie, feeling sick with fear. He needed to get it together if he was going to get through this.]
[Well that was easier than expected he gave him a smiled and pulled Leo along] good boy
[It didn't take long to get to the hotel, Arthur shoved Leo into the room and closed his door] now Snowflake strip for me, show me that beautiful perfect skin.
[The walk to the hotel felt long and silent, but the second they got into the room everything was fast and loud. Leo stumbled, making some space between them. He felt better with distance.]
Why do you keep calling me that? [He questioned, hesitantly lifting his shirt over his head and pulling it off his arms. He felt more self conscious than he ever with the man who scarred him staring at his skin and those very same marks. It was like... Knowing something bad was going to happen and waiting for it to come.
He held on to his shirt nervously, not wanting to go any further.]
[Leo swallowed, trying to get some moisture into his throat which felt tight and dry. He unfastened his pants and pushed them and his shorts off, stepping out of them and sliding his bundle of clothes under a nearby chair. All the while his ice blue eyes stayed fixed on the man, watching him and waiting like prey waits to run from a hunter.]
Cash up front. [He managed to speak. Standing there naked and terrified, his voice sounded so far away.]
Yeah, I want to count it. [Leo said reaching out and taking the money before counting it with shaking hands. He got two hundred, but could have miscounted for all h knew. The sight of those cigarettes all in a row like a white convener belt... It was horrifying. Usually the sight of so many smokes would be welcome to him, but not today. Not when he knew what they were for, lined up like surgical equipment.]
Yeah... [Leo nodded, putting the money away safely. His hearty felt heavy, like a lump of ice with it's wet melting parts seeping into his chest.
He approached the bed and sat down beside the man, leaving space between them as he gave him a nervous look. If it was going to be the same as before, he'd want him to lie down, but... Leo waited for instruction. He didn't want to make any mistakes with this guy.]
S-sure... [Leo took the cigarette and placed it on his lower lip, easing back so he could lay on the bed and take a deep breath, filling his lungs with that fiery fog.
The anticipation of pain was getting to him and even though he was laying down and smoking, he couldn't relax. Every part of him was tense. He felt sick, like he'd had an argument with his best friend. Like he'd made every mistake he could make.
The cigarette itself felt so heavy he could barely hold it up between drags. He knew that soon it would be biting him back, sucking the blood out of him.]
[He smirked and then kicked Leo's leg] open it more
[Arthur looked over Leo and took a picture, checking it was a good one before moving to position Leo more] I want your chin up more and to see your cock
[He licked his lips as he titled Leo's head]like this snowflake
Sorry... [Leo winced, opening his legs more and allowing the man to position him as he wanted. His hands felt so dry and cold.]
L-like that? [He asked, feeling like his eyes must have been wider than a saucer eyed cat. He wanted to leave. He wanted to go running into Aydin's arms so that he could make him feel like himself again. Right now, he felt like an empty copy, or a blank piece of paper with the word 'snowflake' burnt into it with a lit cigarette.]
[Arthur looked at the cigarette, his expression changing similar to a child's on Christmas] one more pull and then we can begin
[he ran his hand through Leo's hair and pulled him forward taking a picture of his back and then holding his hair forcing Leo to look at him] one more Snowflake
[That prospect of taking that last pull made Leo feel like a child at Christmas too. The kind of Christmas where Momma was drunk again and her abusive boyfriend was beating on him and your best friend until they couldn't stand up no more.
He took a shaky breath as the man held his head back by his hair, feeling his Adams apple bop in his throat as he gulped. He didn't want to inhale, but he had to. The sooner he did it, the sooner it would begin. The sooner it started, the sooner it could end.
He made eye contact with Arthur as he took one long last drag on the smoke, feeling sick with the fear of what was about to happen.]
[Arthur watched as took in the smoke and loved how Leo's face look, he leant in tilting his head as if he was inspecting a car that had broken down] remarkable
[Once Leo had finished Arthur took the cigarette and trailed his hand across his collar bone] do you remember what to do?
I... K-kinda...Yeah. [Leo stammered. He was meant to lie down on his back first, so that Arthur could mark the front. Then he'd turn over for the burns to the back. That was how it had gone last time. He hadn't forgotten one terrifying second of it.
He lay back down slowly, and waited. Every second waiting for it was like a train racing through his chest cavity, thundering chaos through his veins.]
I'm ready. [He said, closing his eyes.] Just get it over with.
[The way this man spoke to him made his blood turn to ice. He was so calm and easy in his clear and sickening instruction.
The fact that he had a favorite burn mark made Leo want to tear it off.
He put his lips around the cigarette, sealing them around the paper in order to take a drag. The dry air and smoke felt like the poison it was filling his lungs and burning there. He had to exhale, but he didn't want to.]
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Date: 2017-06-01 10:04 am (UTC)[Arthur tilted his head as he looked over Leo] so Snowflake? are you sure you're not for sale?
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Date: 2017-06-01 05:49 pm (UTC)Every single nerve in him told him not to go. The last time had frightened him beyond measure and scarred him for life. Then again... Aydin had already had two clients today. Two. What did he have? Nothing at all.]
I... I don't know.
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Date: 2017-06-02 09:27 am (UTC)[He leant in towards him and licked his lips slowly] come on, let's go to the hotel. I know you want to
[Aurthur grinned and tugged at Leo's shirt]come snowflake
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Date: 2017-06-02 12:14 pm (UTC)The mans tongue was like rotten meat on his lips. He wanted to back off, but he couldn't move.
Then, like a dog, he felt the command hit him and his mind jumped to action. He found himself walking by the mans side like a total zombie, feeling sick with fear. He needed to get it together if he was going to get through this.]
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Date: 2017-06-02 02:55 pm (UTC)[It didn't take long to get to the hotel, Arthur shoved Leo into the room and closed his door] now Snowflake strip for me, show me that beautiful perfect skin.
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Date: 2017-06-02 03:24 pm (UTC)Why do you keep calling me that? [He questioned, hesitantly lifting his shirt over his head and pulling it off his arms. He felt more self conscious than he ever with the man who scarred him staring at his skin and those very same marks. It was like... Knowing something bad was going to happen and waiting for it to come.
He held on to his shirt nervously, not wanting to go any further.]
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Date: 2017-06-04 09:21 am (UTC)[He smirked showing his teeth to Leo and took a slow silent step towards him] I like it, it suites you Snowflake
[Another step] you have perfect pale skin
[Another step closing the gap between them] cold and full of anger. Pants off.
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Date: 2017-06-04 06:41 pm (UTC)Cash up front. [He managed to speak. Standing there naked and terrified, his voice sounded so far away.]
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Date: 2017-06-06 02:15 pm (UTC)[He took two hundred out of his wallet and handed it to the boy] There you go Snowflake two hundred, want to count it?
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Date: 2017-06-19 07:42 pm (UTC)is it there snowflake? [He inhaled slowly and flicked his eyebrows at the boy before letting the smoke drift out of his mouth] can we start now?
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Date: 2017-06-19 09:13 pm (UTC)He approached the bed and sat down beside the man, leaving space between them as he gave him a nervous look. If it was going to be the same as before, he'd want him to lie down, but... Leo waited for instruction. He didn't want to make any mistakes with this guy.]
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Date: 2017-06-19 10:34 pm (UTC)However [his hand trailed up Leo's skin feeling the curves of his body and how soft it was to touch] lie on the bed and smoke it.
[he stood up and pulled his phone out of his pocket] Photos?
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Date: 2017-06-19 10:51 pm (UTC)The anticipation of pain was getting to him and even though he was laying down and smoking, he couldn't relax. Every part of him was tense. He felt sick, like he'd had an argument with his best friend. Like he'd made every mistake he could make.
The cigarette itself felt so heavy he could barely hold it up between drags. He knew that soon it would be biting him back, sucking the blood out of him.]
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Date: 2017-06-20 09:59 pm (UTC)[Arthur looked over Leo and took a picture, checking it was a good one before moving to position Leo more] I want your chin up more and to see your cock
[He licked his lips as he titled Leo's head]like this snowflake
Such a fear boner...
Date: 2017-06-20 11:10 pm (UTC)L-like that? [He asked, feeling like his eyes must have been wider than a saucer eyed cat. He wanted to leave. He wanted to go running into Aydin's arms so that he could make him feel like himself again. Right now, he felt like an empty copy, or a blank piece of paper with the word 'snowflake' burnt into it with a lit cigarette.]
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Date: 2017-06-23 11:40 am (UTC)[Arthur looked at the cigarette, his expression changing similar to a child's on Christmas] one more pull and then we can begin
[he ran his hand through Leo's hair and pulled him forward taking a picture of his back and then holding his hair forcing Leo to look at him] one more Snowflake
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Date: 2017-06-25 06:42 pm (UTC)He took a shaky breath as the man held his head back by his hair, feeling his Adams apple bop in his throat as he gulped. He didn't want to inhale, but he had to. The sooner he did it, the sooner it would begin. The sooner it started, the sooner it could end.
He made eye contact with Arthur as he took one long last drag on the smoke, feeling sick with the fear of what was about to happen.]
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Date: 2017-06-25 07:22 pm (UTC)[Once Leo had finished Arthur took the cigarette and trailed his hand across his collar bone] do you remember what to do?
[he did like it when his pets knew the routine]
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Date: 2017-06-25 07:59 pm (UTC)He lay back down slowly, and waited. Every second waiting for it was like a train racing through his chest cavity, thundering chaos through his veins.]
I'm ready. [He said, closing his eyes.] Just get it over with.
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Date: 2017-07-12 06:31 pm (UTC)[he ran his fingertip over the burn nearest his hip,
hold the cigarette steady as he watched the boy's body quiver]
I move to a spot you have a drag on the cigarette and then exhale saying a number. There are ten.
[He took a drag himself and then offered it to Leo] I'm saving your shoulder for last Snowflake, it's my favourite.
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Date: 2017-07-13 07:24 am (UTC)The fact that he had a favorite burn mark made Leo want to tear it off.
He put his lips around the cigarette, sealing them around the paper in order to take a drag. The dry air and smoke felt like the poison it was filling his lungs and burning there. He had to exhale, but he didn't want to.]
One... [He said quietly, closing his eyes.]